Not Good

Yesterday, i started the day with a frowning face and ended it up the same. First thing’s first. Being the president of the class is not that easy. It’s just like your classmates and your fcking adviser depends everything on you. No one even bothers on helping you and as if you can do everything alone. That’s one thing that really sucked. So yeah, yesterday.. I was astonished because our adviser nagged at me again. She was turning red and saying harsh words at me. Well hello? She did that in front of my classmates. I was all like..Ashdjksdhfjfdhgjdfkg and wanna burst out crying but i don’t want to. I fought the urge to answer back ‘cause it already hurts like epic hell, but i respect her especially that she’s older than me. I just pretended that i don’t care at all eventhough it kills me inside. Hatred. That’s what i really felt. I’m already used to all those nagging that happens every morning, but it was really the first time that i think i’ve lost my patience. It was worst. She even told me i was useless. Like whut. I never wanted to be the president at the first place. Fine! Put all the blame on me. Say what you wanted to say. Backbite me. I’ll have my patience, and i’ll prove you wrong of what you’re accusing me. You’ll see.

Thanks

To those people who’ve been pulling me down, thank you!! You’ve made me realize that i am strong enough to accept those critics. I used to be so weak emotionally, especially when it comes to dealing with haters. I usually think i’m not that good. I take things too seriously and digest it until it becomes all my think-abouts. I cry over shallow things. I don’t know how to express what i feel. I cry and let myself be affected. Now, i’ve realized that it’s a part of my journey towards life. I don’t want enemies. It’s not that i want to please everyone, i just want things to be normal. Everything really happens for a reason. I’ll strive to be stronger than the usual. I won’t let myself be affected and pulled down by others. This is me. If they have a problem, so be it.

Wow, Just Wow

While going home, my sister was kind of eating a heart lollipop. I asked her where she bought it ‘cause it was just too cute. She told me Francis gave it to her, the one that she has a crush on. Hahahaha! Such a sweet boy, isn’t he? I blushed and she gave me one. It was of three pieces for i love you. Lol. I know my sister’s too young to be in love but i think it’s normal. They have mutual feelings according to her, and i know she isn’t assuming ‘cause i asked him, too. Francis would always text her saying they would meet at the dome and talk. I wonder what they are talking about everytime they meet. K. I am not jealous or what. Not to be ostentatious, but my sister’s really beautiful eventhough she’s not fair-skinned. I was just merely shocked ‘cause i haven’t experienced that kind of thing. Three heart lollipops? Wow. She really has a lot of admirers, not like me. I rarely receive things from a paramour. Hahaha. Oh well, i’m happy for her. I sometimes can’t stop laughing ‘cause she keeps on telling me she’s really in love. Lol, puppy love, i guess.