Not Good

Yesterday, i started the day with a frowning face and ended it up the same. First thing’s first. Being the president of the class is not that easy. It’s just like your classmates and your fcking adviser depends everything on you. No one even bothers on helping you and as if you can do everything alone. That’s one thing that really sucked. So yeah, yesterday.. I was astonished because our adviser nagged at me again. She was turning red and saying harsh words at me. Well hello? She did that in front of my classmates. I was all like..Ashdjksdhfjfdhgjdfkg and wanna burst out crying but i don’t want to. I fought the urge to answer back ‘cause it already hurts like epic hell, but i respect her especially that she’s older than me. I just pretended that i don’t care at all eventhough it kills me inside. Hatred. That’s what i really felt. I’m already used to all those nagging that happens every morning, but it was really the first time that i think i’ve lost my patience. It was worst. She even told me i was useless. Like whut. I never wanted to be the president at the first place. Fine! Put all the blame on me. Say what you wanted to say. Backbite me. I’ll have my patience, and i’ll prove you wrong of what you’re accusing me. You’ll see.

Thanks

To those people who’ve been pulling me down, thank you!! You’ve made me realize that i am strong enough to accept those critics. I used to be so weak emotionally, especially when it comes to dealing with haters. I usually think i’m not that good. I take things too seriously and digest it until it becomes all my think-abouts. I cry over shallow things. I don’t know how to express what i feel. I cry and let myself be affected. Now, i’ve realized that it’s a part of my journey towards life. I don’t want enemies. It’s not that i want to please everyone, i just want things to be normal. Everything really happens for a reason. I’ll strive to be stronger than the usual. I won’t let myself be affected and pulled down by others. This is me. If they have a problem, so be it.

Wow, Just Wow

While going home, my sister was kind of eating a heart lollipop. I asked her where she bought it ‘cause it was just too cute. She told me Francis gave it to her, the one that she has a crush on. Hahahaha! Such a sweet boy, isn’t he? I blushed and she gave me one. It was of three pieces for i love you. Lol. I know my sister’s too young to be in love but i think it’s normal. They have mutual feelings according to her, and i know she isn’t assuming ‘cause i asked him, too. Francis would always text her saying they would meet at the dome and talk. I wonder what they are talking about everytime they meet. K. I am not jealous or what. Not to be ostentatious, but my sister’s really beautiful eventhough she’s not fair-skinned. I was just merely shocked ‘cause i haven’t experienced that kind of thing. Three heart lollipops? Wow. She really has a lot of admirers, not like me. I rarely receive things from a paramour. Hahaha. Oh well, i’m happy for her. I sometimes can’t stop laughing ‘cause she keeps on telling me she’s really in love. Lol, puppy love, i guess.

Idk.

I cried a river yesterday and i know that was lame. The reason why i cried is because of that effin’ stalker. Good thing Mary Lou, Dave, Pat, Ken, Charles, Keith, Jay, Matthan and Manuel was there. They comforted me and made me calm down. Okay na sana ako kaso dumating si Ilde then she said something unexpected. I was like “Omg, Am i awake?”

And yes, i cried again. I blame myself for being sooooo sensitive. I always get hurt easily. Boo me. Then, my bestfriends asked me why. I told them what Ilde said. And they were like “Adsjlfhjskdfhdskjfhds!! That can’t be!!”

FML FML FML.

I trusted her yet what did she do? Uhh, i admit i rued.

My classmates were trying to calm me down because i’d be going up the stage. They don’t like to see my eyes swell. Hahaha

I really wanted to lksdjhfsd her, but i can’t. I don’t have the guts. Hohoho.

Honors’ recognition ..

I got 3rd honors. I went up the stage with my granny to get the medallion. Congratulations blahblah. I admit that was boringggg. And besides, ang init din sa covered court. So, the program ended at 3:30 i guess? Idk. I wanted to go home that time but we were required to go back to our classroom for the checking of attendance. I think that was useless. Our adviser wasn’t there. Hahahaha

To Rainbow:

Condolences on Pinocchio. Be careful. She’s a…. Nevermind. Hahaha! Thanks for the heartache. Oops. Heartache? Should that be the right term? Nvm. Basta, thanks. You made me realize that i should be generous enough to share my old toys to poor spoiled brats. Hahaha. Ahkjdfhsd.

Much hate,

Mawee :)

I think i’m demented. Kthanks.

Posted this on Tumblr before i posted it here.

Turned-Off?

O hai. So, there's this guy who caught my attention. He's tall, fair-skinned and handsome. He's my classmate. I got to see him everyday. But i never talk to him. I feel awkward. We're not that close, but someday, i know we'll be good friends. Loljk :)) But seriously, I don't really know if i like him or not. I think i was just attracted by his physical appearance. Anyway, i shared this "feeling" to my best friends because i trust them, of course. I was then agitated when one of my best friends said he was a "chickboy". He play games with girls. You know what i mean.

After that conversation, there's this feeling that i really can't understand. I was "turned-off", they say. But why should i? Ugh. K, nevermind. I still don't know him.

Sssssssssssssssssssssssh ;)